Sound Of Heart

Remember the silence that we have made it till now

Realize that it seems too idiot cause it going almost two years right now

All the happiness turns to a nightmare when I can’t find you anymore

I’m on a crowded now, but without you , this smile means nothing at all

another side of stories (tell me if i'm wrong)

well guys.., this is just like any stories that u ever heard or see. tapi kali ini sedikit berbeda, kalian bisa bilang ini another side of the stories... cerita dimana yang terjadi seperti kalian baca atau dengar sebelumya..

dimulai dari suatu hari, awal permulaan yang mungkin seperti cerita lainnya.. seorang teenager yang sedikit liar memulai perjalanannya untuk merubah sifatnya dari tercela menjadi terpuji di suatu tempat. katakanlah sebuah sekolah madrasah yan sedikit terkenal di daerah itu.

Useless Gift (a past draft)

crossing over the night.., almost wasn't sleep in a week.., prepare a lot for the final day.., spend much time just for made a bunch of stupid folders to make a cyber labyrinth ... buy a laughing jacket.. make an unacceptable song... and try to arranged it in a freaky cd
and let's see the result.. "bingo! i'm just being a looser!!"

i'm just trying to being brave enough.., and i got it..
but suddently.., it happened in front of me..
i must choose one of two things that i really need in this world..
Friendship.. or Love..

i need friendship just because it was very difficult to me to have a friendship.. i'm not like any other guys which have a lot of friends.. i just have some of friends in my side.. have a thousand friends is not enough, but have an enemy is more than enough...

Love.., it wasn't just a feeling.. it more than a life... and sometimes.. it can make me life..
but actually.., love will be complete if ur mate have it too..
and then.., in this case.. unfortunately it just a one-handed love for me..
it is strong and unbeaten feeling of love that i have.., but it wasn't have the lucky.. just one-handed love..
oh my...

so.. with a smile in my face and a heartache.. i'm going home.. burn the cd that i made n turn to sleep..
hmmh..  hyaawn... (but how about the jacket!?)

My Weird Birthday

it's all about 25th June 2011,  it was the first time i had a Birthday in a hospital. Not too bad i think.., but because it was on a hospital.., almost no one came to see me on my 17th birhtday.., there's just my brother and my parents included me on my room..

right in 00.00 am exactly in the midnight, they turn off the light, i think it was natural, but not.. my sister did it. they come sneaky to my room at the eighth floor so i can't hear their voices.. suddenly.. they shocked me out by saying "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" in front of my bed.. and then they   laugh over me while i'm still shocked in the bed.. hahaha...

they got a cake in their hand.. so after it we celebrate my birthday.. i've got my wished.. then we eat the cake together with my family and some nurses. *nurse? where they came from?

right in the afternoon, i was just alone again.., really alone without no one in my side.. i wish someone that i hope to come can come right now and say happy birthday to me.. but it's not happened. i just alone untill evening.. stare at the room sky.. dreaming and getting bored.. suddently... my new hp ringing beside my head...

it was my schoolmate, mala...
i'm not really hope that she call me and say happy birthday, but she did it, thanks. i think it was the end of our conversation, but she said "there's someone who wanna said happy birthday too to me!". i'm not too think about it and just say "yeaah!" because i'm in the middle of highly bored place and time. i turn to smile and really happy after say a girl voice, a little bit shy.. but i know it's she.. my heart beat so fast and just stay shut up until she said "Happy Birthday ya Kah, Moga cepat sembuh dan sehat selalu". i still remember the voice when she said that to me.. i'm really happy in that time.. so i say "makasih ya Ny" and then stay calm again without saying nothing.. i hear some people voices from the phone.. their laughing so loud.. and then i smile alone with a red happy face in the bored room....

night has come, i almost sleep.. but i can't sleep because there's something i wanna do before i sleep..
it's something that i wanna do almost one years ago.. suddently, i'm feeling brave.. i send a sms, to say that i have a feel to the girl that i wanna she come today. i know that my brave s not enough, so i just send a sms, not call her. i'm waiting for the reply but there's nothing.

then i wake up in the morning and open my hp, there's a reply from her.. i was to happy.. but the reply was broken. so without wasting my time, i ask her to send it again because the last was broken one. she send it again and finally i read it.. i'm so happy and cannot say anything because the answer is the same like i do.
hahaaaai.... cyayyacyacyayaaa  \( ^____^")a

but now  it's already changed. her feeling was gone.
then finally i'm just alone and hold this feeling alone.

a part of u that not mine

hsssskk.., its really annoyed me.. you do that in front of me today...
it make my heart like stopping but it still work properly..
i know it should be non of my business..
but i just want you to know that i'm still already here when you just like hug him in front of the class

yeaah.. well.. hikss..
finally i just can pretend that you're mine.., eventhough it just in my dream...
from someone who always love you... :)]

S2 U

hhaha..., this's just another type of my little mystery.., it's kind of  a synonym from heart..
still does'n know it any more..??
(haha.., that's not my fault..) ^_^

btw, i ever wrote that to someone that i loved..., it's just a symbol to say "i love u" for me..,
but., she didn't understand to wht i meant on the first,,, so., without wasting any time..,
i just said that to her the real meaning of that word when i'm really miss her...  ^_^
"love u"..   :)]

holiday with her..

hhaha.., u know.., it's felt like i was in dreamland when it happened...
days grow  longer.., and night getting shorter....
i can feel the air that had crushing my face when i was riding a motorcycle with her...
it's feel like so awesome....

we talking., joking.., and smiling.., around the way.., hhehe
u know...,, it's always make me happy when i see her smiles in front of my eyes......


^___^

I'm Not A Toy

you know..,
everytime &  everywhere..., i'll always remember you..., protect you.., and smile for you...
but what you did..?? u just like pulled out a knife to  me from behind me..,
you crushed me when i saw u said " i miss u" to someone not me...

just say why..?? don't be so nice to me if you just wanna make me "LIKE A TOY".....
(-____-)

always smile...

huh..,
you know guys..,
maybe there's a mistake in my head i think..., coz i dunno why...
eventhough  when i'm really sad and  really angry inside of me...,in front of her..,
i just can smile.., and forget what had been done to me.., hhehe
that's crazy right..?? yeah i know it..

some people thinks that was crazy..,
but if you really had ever felt like what i feel now..,, u'll understand what's the real meaning of love..
hhaha....,   ":)]
*peace    

One of The Main Characteristic of Human

yups.., that characteristic is "JEALOUS".., do you ever felt like this one..??
(don't say that u're a human if u never felt this one..) hhaha...

u know.., i always feel it when i'm in ma school.., and u know why..??
it just b'coz there's someone that i really love in my Class and b'coz
she always have a lot of guys beside her...,,
(that thing's really make me crazy to think about it).. hhaha  ^_^"