Selamat Ulang Tahun Keberanianku

tak terasa sudah setahun telah berlalu..
banyak yang sudah terlewati dan banyak pula yang telah berubah..
ada begitu banyak dimensi yang telah dilewati..
sepercik hatikupun tak tahu kenapa mulai hidup kembali..

My 18th Birthday Party

dimulai dari jam 10 pagi,  dikarenakan udah bingung mau bgimana ngabarin yang lain smntara hape juga lagi opname, tiba2 muncul ide ntuk gunain social network yg lg ntrenz kata mereka, twitter. yg di mt si dua, tpi yg rply 1 doank.. *apa ga ada ol ya? tpi tlnya ada yg baru.. tag apelah.. yg pnting informasinya sampai.. :)

udah deal jam stngah 3 bakal gerak, jadi saatnya cuci kreta.. wlwpun kreta orang ya apa bole buat. nggak lama stelah itu ya duduk2 dulu laa, eh tiba2 masuk sms. "bar, ko nganggor? rumah aku yok? sepi kali lama2, kek kuburan disini!" *bgitulah kira2, soalnya ga pala hapal.. tiba2 ntah knapa muncul ide agak kurang di pikir2.. di sendkanlah sms dari hp bunda trcinta ke anggota terdahulu yg isinya bgimana kalau nambah 1 anggota buat ntar? stuju or not?. ga brapa lama, akhirnya di bales. udah snang juga ini tadinya, eh trnyata sama yg bales. ckck.. stlah tawar menawar selesai. akhirnya msuk sms yg ditunggu.. *tpi kburu kelar udah.. heeuh..

okee deal, langsung telpon anak bayangkara itu (kbtulan ada hp axis nganggor) bahwasannya dia telah di undang ke sbuah acara.. eh bukan deng, jalan2 doank niatnya. ngeliat jam udah stngah satu, ya uwes lah mandi jebar jebur n langsung steady ala wow! (mskipun hasilnya sma aja -__-). smbil kunci kreta, bawa tas n camera, then let's goo!!

kira2 jam 2 kurang, sampe lah di rumah tman yg di bayangkara. dia belum sholat rupanya, jadi ya masuk dulu lagi krumahnya. slesai dia sholat kami pun mau langsung cabot, eh trnyata smpe di dpn pntu ada spatu nganggor.. "gib spatu sapa itu?" blas: "oh yaudah pake aja, spatu aku kok, skalian nih helmnya biar ga capek2 lgi msuk kdalam naroknya." okela mantap, helm ama spatu ganti agak wow.. ckck

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My Weird Birthday

it's all about 25th June 2011,  it was the first time i had a Birthday in a hospital. Not too bad i think.., but because it was on a hospital.., almost no one came to see me on my 17th birhtday.., there's just my brother and my parents included me on my room..

right in 00.00 am exactly in the midnight, they turn off the light, i think it was natural, but not.. my sister did it. they come sneaky to my room at the eighth floor so i can't hear their voices.. suddenly.. they shocked me out by saying "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" in front of my bed.. and then they   laugh over me while i'm still shocked in the bed.. hahaha...

they got a cake in their hand.. so after it we celebrate my birthday.. i've got my wished.. then we eat the cake together with my family and some nurses. *nurse? where they came from?

right in the afternoon, i was just alone again.., really alone without no one in my side.. i wish someone that i hope to come can come right now and say happy birthday to me.. but it's not happened. i just alone untill evening.. stare at the room sky.. dreaming and getting bored.. suddently... my new hp ringing beside my head...

it was my schoolmate, mala...
i'm not really hope that she call me and say happy birthday, but she did it, thanks. i think it was the end of our conversation, but she said "there's someone who wanna said happy birthday too to me!". i'm not too think about it and just say "yeaah!" because i'm in the middle of highly bored place and time. i turn to smile and really happy after say a girl voice, a little bit shy.. but i know it's she.. my heart beat so fast and just stay shut up until she said "Happy Birthday ya Kah, Moga cepat sembuh dan sehat selalu". i still remember the voice when she said that to me.. i'm really happy in that time.. so i say "makasih ya Ny" and then stay calm again without saying nothing.. i hear some people voices from the phone.. their laughing so loud.. and then i smile alone with a red happy face in the bored room....

night has come, i almost sleep.. but i can't sleep because there's something i wanna do before i sleep..
it's something that i wanna do almost one years ago.. suddently, i'm feeling brave.. i send a sms, to say that i have a feel to the girl that i wanna she come today. i know that my brave s not enough, so i just send a sms, not call her. i'm waiting for the reply but there's nothing.

then i wake up in the morning and open my hp, there's a reply from her.. i was to happy.. but the reply was broken. so without wasting my time, i ask her to send it again because the last was broken one. she send it again and finally i read it.. i'm so happy and cannot say anything because the answer is the same like i do.
hahaaaai.... cyayyacyacyayaaa  \( ^____^")a

but now  it's already changed. her feeling was gone.
then finally i'm just alone and hold this feeling alone.

Her Birthday on march 12th

hehhehe..
i know the plan that we made is "out of control" coz.., everything is not what we expected., and then luckily we have a smart actor that can turn the bad situation to an awesome one.., but what we had done to Her is too bad i think.., coz it make Her remember to Her mom who had been still in hospital..., and Alhamdulillah it just for the first.., not a long time after that.., she can smile again like what we wanted All of that time..

hhehehe..., Thanks God for give me this "Unforgotten Day", i promise.., i'll always remember about this day.., and i wanna say thanks too for All of My friends who helped me to making that day "Full of Happiness"...

oh yaa.., i almost forget..
i have a video that i already show it to Her..
this is the Video..
Please Watching This..

Happy Birthday Ny..

4 hours most wonderful in my life..

yeah..., that time was so wonderful for me....
you know  why..??
it just b'coz i walking around the city with an angel behind me....
hhahaha...., i dunno what should i say to express what i felt in that time...
like a wind but just a motorcycle..
like a world but just a city..
like forever but just 4 hours....

heuummhh... ^_______^